Downloads and the Torus

Occasionally, during a meditation, an unexpected and interesting image will arise in my awareness. Often, these images will carry an essence of importance and mystery, seemingly originating from a place deeper and more truthful than common thought. Meditation practitioners or psychonauts sometimes refer to these forms as ‘downloads’. Downloads are part visualisation, part realisation. There are thousands of mind-forms of subtly different types floating around in the ether that one’s awareness can pick up on. A lot of this feels like ‘cafeteria chatter’ or noise from a radio or TV which can’t settle on one channel, but downloads often stand out because they emanate from a place of relative stillness.

I have a strong hunch that thoughts exist on quite an abstract and disembodied plane – like little pieces of dust floating in space. I believe that these thoughts are pieces of information (light), and that each vibrates/waves/oscillates at a particular frequency. Depending on the electromagnetic frequency of the nervous system (an energy conductor which works like a complex battery or light frequency receiver), some thoughts will be attracted and other thoughts will be repelled. If a thought is magnetised towards you and matches your vibration closely enough, it is more likely to merge and integrate with your being, because your consciousness and the thought are sharing a similar structure in that moment. Through this mating of ether (mind-forms) and earth (body), the thought has an opportunity to become something ‘realer’ and to manifest itself firstly as an idea, then a belief, then an action, then an event memory which becomes part of an identity (an idea of ‘me’).

So, a thought starts out as something immaterial, floating, lost in the universe, and seeks to become one with an earthed, solid being. It is a journey from smallness, formlessness and separation towards manifestation and belonging in the world. Perhaps when the nervous system is in harmony from prolonged meditation, the entire body becomes more sensitive to thought forms, so they are experienced in a richer, more embodied way, through all of one’s being rather than on a purely ‘heady’ level. When we are in a state of calm embodiment, on the way towards the bliss of self-realisation, the type of mind-forms we attract or pick up on are more profound, freeing and interesting. Rather than experiencing downloads as random pieces of information, it feels as though one can experience existence as the form that is downloaded. Essentially, we are experiencing undiscovered parts of ourselves.

I have one particularly clear, memorable experience of receiving a download during meditation. I had been sitting for around half an hour, passing through various states of clarity, noise, emptiness, emotion and sense, when I suddenly saw a fascinating shape in my mind’s eye. I had a real sense that this shape was a gift; a piece of a cosmic puzzle that someone or something of intelligence or had decided to show me. I didn’t just see it - I somehow knew it. I didn’t know what it meant and I had no conscious memory of seeing it before, but it felt important. It was new to my intellectual brain yet familiar to my being. The shape appeared on a dark backdrop and was most similar to a donut, but constructed from a translucent pink, blue and purple aura or web. In the very same moment, I felt an embodied knowing, almost as clear as a voice, which told me that this had something to do with the structure of the universe. It had come out of nowhere but was beautifully formed and complete. This was what differentiated this download from ordinary thoughts.

After my meditation, I did the obvious thing and Googled ‘donut universe’. There it was, the same shape I had seen. It is called a torus, and its structure is found in every polarised magnetic field. As I did further research, I saw this structure expressed in more and more places; the core of an apple; the cross-section of a tree; even the direction of energy as a plant grows up through its core before spreading outward then losing its flowers, which then re-cycle back into the earthy floor from which the roots feed. In Tantra (branch of yoga focusing on the weaving a sacred union between opposites), the flow of prana or life-energy is said to flow up the spine like a double helix through two main energy channels (Ida and Pingala) from Muladhara (the root/base of the very base of the spine) to Ajna (the third eye/pineal gland) and then dissipate upward and outward back into the surrounds. As you’ll see in the diagrams, this is exactly what a toroidal energy flow is.

The most obvious way to see a real-world effect of this toroidal system is by looking at how thoughts, beliefs and perspectives become solidified as character traits, and how these character traits, in turn, create a different subjective relationship with the every day world. What we see is what we believe; what we believe is what we do; what we do is what we get back, in one way or another. Check out the diagrams below and hit reply if you’ve read anything here which resonates!